i’m looking up at buildings again

There it goes again – opportunity dancing at my finger tips.

It’s disturbing the way I’ve always been conscious of it. It’s everywhere, in everything, in everyone… It’s always been there, it’s still there, with no promises of forever beingĀ there. There’s the disturbing part, that I’ve barely made a move, barley made a pass at opportunity.

I lack self-discipline, self-control. Maybe I’m waiting for a push. Or a downward pull.

Grr. Make decisions with your ____ but let your ____ guide you. I believe that. Honestly I do. I lack guidance. I’m not looking to other people either, I’m looking at myself.

Hmm. Idle minds tend to lose themselves.

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Uhmmm… I may dream about summer and beaches and the sun and sand a lot, and complain about the cold often…. but truth is… I really like living in a place where I can go through, and enjoy to the fullest, each of the four seasons. Maybe that’s what makes summer so damn good. I’m looking forward to it, always looking forward to it